i feel sad, sick n stress...

"bila cinta kini tak lagi bermakna", uishh wat a sad song...am listening to it while doing notes for final...i cried especially part, "hilang nya cintamu menusuk hatiku, perginya dirimu merobek jantungku, ku sebut namamu di setiap doaku"...sedih nya...huh i can't wait to watch lagenda budak setan but miri cinema doesn't have it...damn! well get back to my life, next week will be a haunted week for me...hehe exam oh exam...15,16,18 n 21...good luck to myself...!!! hm...a bit stress for me but i guess i act like nothing happen, cool la konon...wat da!!! ibu, can't wait for you to come...i feel i dunno wat i feel, no feeling...i guess la...actually i miss someone so badly...nevamind, i dun wan anybody to know let juz myself know bout it...wat i feel only myself know...not bcuz i dun wan to share to others but every single things dat happen to me i keep it to myself...oh yah, a lot of people told aku gemuk...i was like, hah gemuk...wat did i eat??? its like da same everyday...23 jun am going back to sabah...first thing i wanna do sleep da whole day on my pinky bed...haha i miss my room, even though not so beautiful like others but its cool...hehe 2nd i wanna do international passport...n the whole holiday am going to learn how to cook, saja2 tmbh pengetahuan and also continue to learn how to bake cake... i only know bake chocolate cake...oh yah, am going to spend my holiday at home...bcuz nothing special in Lahad Datu...for sure am gonna miss miri...but its only 1 month holiday la...hehe oh yah wanna meet all my aunts, cuzziess, uncles, grandma, granpa, sisters, eh all la...hehe but i dunno la if i can be da same like da old me cuz now am a bit silent...it's not easy...i love him no matter wat...and seriously i miss him like hell...n i dunno either i can meet him anymore...to be honest if i receive 1 msg from him, only 1 msg saying dat i miss u ka apa ka, huh am gonna smile like there's no tomorrow...but dat only a wish...doesn't mean i didn't msg him i forget bout him...no, cuz everything dat i do reminds me of him...