Stay strong Anis.

hello bloggy. i couldn't have time to write here even though i hav a lot of stories to write. studies make me feels sick. huh. i'm so scared about my finance. i hope i can pass n i will be grateful if i get only 50. God i pray for it. Amin. back to my stories, i wonder n still wondering why when the moment i dun wan to be in a relationship many people come for it. i'm juz sick of being hurt. my heart still not recovered yet. and am sory to say bcuz he is still in my heart. wat i know stay strong to face it even though it's killing me. wat i can say is my heart hancur. dats all. mybe am still hoping. but i dunno the more i want to forget bout him the more i love him. if only i could tell him i can't be without him but i know reality doesn't want us to be together. mybe its true, now its not our time. watever happen i juz leave it to God. God knows everything n there's a reason why he did this to me. Ya Allah, ku berharap suatu hari nanti kmi d temukan semula. Amin.

you got a big ego, such a huge ego!

My 20th Birthday.

am sory bcuz am about too late to write here..i was busy n not feeling fine in these few days..My Birthday was awesome..dats da only comment i can say..thanx to my family especially my parents, my sisters, my grandma, and my beloved frens..it was unexpected and thats why very awesome..my best birthday that i ever had in my life even though i was too far away from home..to be 20 years old is my dream since i was in high school..and yah it's like a dream for me to hav this age at this moment..cuz i still feel like am 19..hehe i can only say it was fucking damn fun..lol but yet, even though i had fun but at the same time i still felt sad..not to say am hoping but am going hopeless..it's true what is zami said dun ever hope cuz if u hope it will make u down..i knew n i knew it..it's like a miracle if i hav a wish from him..but nevamind cuz i know someday he will understand, even though just a bit..

I miss everyone.

Dad, mum, sisters, grandma, and everyone. i miss u all. can i say to the world tonite that i miss you all? why i feel so empty tonite. can someone entertain me please. how i wish at least someone could know what i feel inside, how i wish there's someone i can share all what i feel inside. at least someone please. i can't tell my dad n mum cuz they're far from me. i dunno why i cry every time i write here. i wanna tell my fren but they also hav a problem. for a long time i've been keeping all my probs by myself but for now i dunno why i'm so weak. i wonder where all my strength gone. why before this when i get hurt i never feel like this. why this time i feel it much. i seriously can't get this thing out of my mind. why, why, why? i hate myself. damn! it's not easy, it hurts me. you hurt me. i dunno wat else i can say. wat i know is inside i die. dats all.

I tought I was strong.

last nite was the nite that for the first time i saw him on9 on facebook. i was surprised because it's been a long time since he moved i never saw him on9, mybe his on9 but his appeared off9. hm i dunno why the moment i saw his name on the list my heart berdebar. i was trying to calm down but it doesn't work. i dunno why am so weak. why i can't forget bout him? why i still thinking bout him? why sometimes i do cry for him? why i still miss him? why, why, why and why? and at the same time he never think bout me. my fren always say why do you have to cry for him, did he cry for you? the answer is never. am sory to my self, i need time for this.

Cinta Teragung Lirik-D'Hask

aku tak kenal erti cinta
aku tak percaya akannya
tak sehingga ada dirinya
berubah segala yg ada

cinta itu satu anugerah
tak bisa di ungkap asalnya
hati ini terukir nama dia
yg dulu tidak pernah adanya

[Chorus]

sesungguhnya... hati ini tak ada
duanya
andai haluan di ubah hala
kau tetap cinta yg ternyata
wo..oo

yg pastinya cintaku cinta luar biasa
antara teragung di alam maya
kerna ku tak kenal putus asa.. oo...

Stress=Die

Tmrrw finance mid term, next tmrrw economics n accounting 201 mid term, next monday eco assignment due, next tuesday marketing assignment due... i seriously need a rest!